SHOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

I SWEAR TO GOD, IF I SEE YOU ANYWHERE NEAR MY HOUSE, OR MY WORKPLACE, I KNOW DAMN WELL IT'S NOT A COINCIDENCE. AND I BETTER DON'T SEE YOU AT ANY OF THESE PLACES AND IF I DO FOUND OUT THAT YOU WERE WATCHING OR SOMETHING, I SWEAR TO GOD I'LL CALL THE POLICE. STOP STALKING ME. YOU'RE FREAKING ME OUT, SERIOUSLY. URGGHHHHH. YOU'RE SO FREAKY.

arse.

"I love you jack ass"

"I love your ass Jack"

He loves assholes, cos he's one himself.

I'm working now, again. At Gloria Jean's Coffees, but this time in Midvalley. Here we go again. Wakes up early in the morning to make people's morning latte. yawwwwn*

I think my family involving in the food business is a really bad idea. I'm growing very fast now. Not in the giraffe kinda way, but more like the elephant and balloon kinda way.

I get really confused with my life now. Everything just come as a shock lately. Like the matriculation thing, and me working at the Midvalley outlet. A few days ago, i thought i'll die a useless pig. And that doesn't seem like a bad idea, but wtv. Gotta keep in mind i'm making my own moneeeeeeyyyyyyyyy! $$$

REDANG REDANG REDANG!

and this is for your eyes;


"Spin Me Around"

Lv,
Shuck.

In Gloria's Jean.

I'm at Gloria Jean's Midvalley with my mum now. Just hangin' here.

Ordered a Turkey Ham and Cheese Sandwich and a Hot Chocolate with Marshmallows. Andddddd, my mum is doing my 2nd order of Turkey Ham and Cheese Sandwich :D Food food food! Can't blame me. It's my third hour here.

Anyways, been planning a paintball outing with Mr Gay Khairin. Prolly will be going on next saturday at Bukit Jalil with soem other people too.

butthole.

yep, i dnt knw why my eyes are closed, or is it closed?, in that new header of mine. but wtv.

slumlove.

I ♥ them! :)

Venus.

I think lately, because i haven't got nothing to do, i have to make stupid daily decisions that makes me feel dumb. Like, where to go at what time with who, or whether i should eat whatever that's on the table because it prolly makes me fat.

When i'm in school, i have to decide whether the question is talking about Newton's first law or Newton's third law of motion. Or the volume of blood the heart pumps eveery second. Now, it's all outta my head and dumbness kicks in.

Bah, i just don't know what to do, now or in the next one month. Same thing will repeat over and over again. Go out, walk around, eat, come back home, shit, talk, online, sleep.

In another unrelated topic, it feels both nice and not so nice when you feel like spending time with nobody but that one person, be it your mum, dad, sis, bro, cousin, or just the boy you're with. Because it's fun to be so crazy in love, but then again, you can't afford to spend time with nobody else in your life. So you gotta balance the time. That sucks. haha

My gay bestfriend is him.

Girls love their gays.

The way to a girl's heart, is through her gay bestfriend.

Behind every pretty girl, is an even prettier gay bestfriend.

But love, doesn't that mean, you have to get yourself a fruit basket? haha

Putra.

Since i was too emo last night to blog, i didn't update much. So here's what really happened.

So i woke up at 6, cos i have to go to Putrajaya with my dad. We went out from the house around 7.30 or so. And we reached there around 8.30. Went to my dad's office, i waited in the car cos my dad needs to clock in. After that we went straight to the Ministry of Higher Education. To find a parking space there is like trying to squeeze a pig in a pigeonhole. No kidding. I prefer One Utama or Bangsar. And my dad always complain about finding a parking spot in these two places.

Went to the ministry, and they actually set up all the chairs and some tables for the matriculation reapplication. Went there, they told me they want a copy of my SPM exam slip and my ic (obviously). But i only have the original one, so me and my dad take a lil spin around putrajaya to find a shop with a photostate machine. We stopped at this one place called Anjung. We did find a parking space, well not really. We kinda like double parked :P Had our breakfast there. It's soooooo full of goverment people walking around. Aren't they supposed to be working or at least pretending that they're working?

So when i get back there (with my dad waiting in the car), the girl told me that i have to write a letter, because they can't trace my application online (obviously since i didn't complete it :P ). And so i did, a hand-written letter. While writing, this guy, whom i pretty sure is the director or something, came. And handle me instead. He's such a fun guy. And bla bla bla, and i think i have a 98% chance of going in. I THINK. Because it depends on how many accepted people refused to go. So yeah.

After all that goverment shit, asked my dad to drop me off at Alamanda while waiting for the knight in shining armor to come. So i walked around. And felt like i need to peepee. Went to toilet, do what i got to do, changed my baju kurung to a short dress :P, and went to the mirror to do my hair and put my phone next to the sink. Went out.

About half an hour later, still waiting alone, i realised i didn't have my phone with me. Rushed like mad to the toilet. The janitor's not there. I waited for her, because i'm just so damn sure i left it there. She came like 10 mins later.

Asked her " ada nampak tak.." and she goes like 'saya tak tahu, saya tak tahu" . I'm like, bull's eye. It's so her. And she even raised her voice at me when all i do was asking, i wasn't even accusing her. So i kinda raised my voice a tiny weeny bit. When she was half way denying something that she's OBVIOUSLY guilty about, i walked away. And i can hear her screaming from the back. It's just so damn obvious it's that cheap whore who took my phone. And it's obvious because that bitch can't even look me in the eye. Fucking cracked up whore.

Called my dad (using the public phone), he tried looking for it in the car, tried calling my phone, it's turned off. So asked my dad to call that psycho gayman at 12, cos that's when he was supposed to be finishing his exam. Called that gayman at 11.30 or so (cos that whore always comes out early from the exam hall), and he found out that i lost my phone from my sis. Talked about speednews :P

So he came to Alamanda, eat, walked around feeling bored, went to Sunway Pyramid, eat, walked around feeling bored, went back home, everyone's home is going out, so went out, eat, while feeling bored, and went home for the 2nd time. so yeah.

My opinion on yesterday is,

1. I LOVE PUTRAJAYA. I LOVE IT, I LOVE IT!

2. I felt a lil bit sad with my phone and all, but that's just a few seconds after i found out it's gone. Cos i kinda like desperate for a new one :P and that Saggy Old Hag prolly needs it more than i do. She needs to put it on vibrate, and shove it up her vagina. Because she can't afford a cheap vibrator. Let alone a cheap gigolo.

3. I love my dad. He's so cool about everything. I love you I love you I love you. My mum too. But my dad's cooler cos he didn't even say anything about it :P

4. My daddy and My Bitch had a microscopic bonding time, cos my dad called him. Which is a huge deal cos if it's someone else *coughs* he wouldnt even want me to even get near that man.
I LOVE YOU DADDDDDDDEEEEYHHHHHHH! :D

5. I'm going away from home for college, and it's not to a better place. But i guess, that's what i have to do. For the greater good :)

"The Best You Never Had"

Lv,
Shuck.

ready, get set, don't go.

(BILLY RAY:)
Shes gotta do what shes gotta do
And I’ve gotta like it or not
Shes got dreams to big for this town
And she needs to give ‘em a shot
Wherever they are

(MILEY:)
Looks like I’m all ready to leave
Theres nothin’ left to pack

(BILLY RAY:)
Aint no room for me in that car
Even if she asks me to tag along

(Both:)
Gotta gotta be strong

(MILEY:)
I’m at the startin line of the rest of my life
As ready as I’ve ever been
Got the hunger and the stars in my eyes
The prize is mine to win

(BILLY RAY:)
She’s waitin’ on my blessins
`Fore she hits that open road
Baby get ready

(MILEY:)
Ohh Im ready

(BILLY RAY:)
Get set, don’t go

(MILEY:)
Looks like things are fallin in place

(BILLY RAY:)
Feels like theyre fallin apart
Im paintin this big ol’ smile on my face
To hide my broken heart
If only she knew

(MILEY:)
This is where you don’t say
What you want so bad to say

(BILLY RAY;)
This is where I want to
But I wont get in the way
Of her and her dream
And spreadin her wings

(MILEY:)
I’m ready to fly

(MILEY:)
Im at the startin line of the rest of my life
As ready as I’ve ever been
Got the hunger and the stars in my eyes
The prize is mine to win

(BILLY RAY:)

She’s waitin’ on my blessins `fore she hits that open road

(MILEY:)
gotta hit that open road

(BILLY RAY:)
Baby get ready, get set

(Both:)
Don’t go

(CHORUS)
(MILEY:)
Im at the startin line of the rest of my life
As ready as Ive ever been

(BILLY RAY:)
It’ll be alright

(MILEY:)
Got the hunger and the stars in my eyes
The prize is mine to win
I’ll be okay

(BILLY RAY:)
She’s waitin’ on my blessings
‘Fore she hits that open road
Baby get ready

(MILEY:)
Oh oh oh

(BILLY RAY:)
Get set, please don’t go
Don’t go

(MILEY:)
Lemme go now
I’m ready

(BILLY RAY:)
Hmmmm Dont go

(MILEY:)
I’ll be alright
I’ll be okay
Know that I’ll
Be thinkin of you
Each and every day

(BILLY RAY:)
Shes gotta do what shes gotta do

(MILEY:)
lemme go now

(BILLY RAY)
Shes gotta do what shes gotta do

(MILEY:)
I gotta do what I gotta do

(BILLY RAY:)
Shes gotta do what shes gotta do

DADDY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I DON'T WANNA LEAVE YOU. SHIT.

chat.

"i cnt even imagine

how bad i'll cry

on the day i have to go

if i can have my way

i dnt wanna go

i love evrything i have now

especially you

and then

i'll have to be far away

from all the things

and ppl i love

dang"

"and nothings gonna be the same

i can barely type now

i cnt see

my tears are blurring my vision

hahah"

"shit

i cnt do this

not now"

"and my life flashes by

just everything i went through

and i came to this point of my life

that i have to say bye bye"

"it would suck more

if we dont work out

cos i hv to do something

for my own good

you know?"

"darn

i feel soooo lonely already

like ppl in my life starting to fade away

this is gay

like you

but i'm not lovin this"

This is for myself. A souvenir for the future :D this is weird, but wtv. i'm emo now. everything goes.

so many thing going on now. one of it, i lost my phone. But i'm crying so bad now, i dnt feel like blogging, not really. I'm gonna leave you people soon. Don't change please? Please.

Shits.

I had a MAJOR breakdown this morning, cos i found out that the matriculation application result is out. And i checked, and obviously, i wasn't accepted. Because i didn't complete and confirm my application during Phase 2. So i cried, and cried and cried. Because if you didn't get the letter from the matriculation college, that means you really are dumb. Even the dumbest people can get in.

But i didn't complete the application on Phase 2 because i didn't bother to. I mean, i didn't know i there's a Phase 2, (why can't they just let us apply once and that's it?) and because probably i was really certain that i'll be going straight to the university instead.

But Khairin told me, he probably couldnt get into University Malaya, eventhough he got like 8a1's, cos of the tough competiton. So that kinda like bring me back to reality. And the only choice i have is University Islam Antarabangsa. And this evil university will not let you go anhywhere else until you get your degree. So, no thanks :) (and because arabic is a compulsory language, and that, i think is quite tough)

So tomorrow, i'll be going to Putrajaya and make an appeal, and try to reapply, correctly this time, to matriculation colleges. And hopefully, i'll get in. And if i do, bye bye kl and hello boring-lonely-life-in-the-middle-nowhere.

And if i DO get in, there might be a chance that Redang trip will be cancelled. :( I was so looking forward to that. Sorry love.

So, enough bout negative shits.

Well, there's nothing else to update anyway.

"She ain't no diva"

Lv,
Shuck.

BEST CHRIS CROCKER VIDEO.

"Bitch, i ain't no negative Nancy, I'mma Realistic Rita!" haha

"And if you got a problem, bring it to my doorstep" THAT'S RIGHTTTTTTT.

"You could quit spreading my name in mud, and lemme get a chance to spread YOUR FACE in it"

I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE CHRIS CROCKERRRRR!

"Anybody who don't like me, there's a reason why they don't like me, cos i'm a safety pin to their bubble and they're scared i'm gonna POP them!"

Chris Crocker should end up with Onch.

"KEEP IT FAKE, KEEP IT CUTE ALL YOU WANT TO, BUT DO NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, NOT IN YOUR WILDEST DREAMS, THINK THAT YOU CAN STEP TO ME"

"WHY DON'T SAY WHAT YOU GOTTA SAY ONLY TO MY BEAUTIFUL FACE? SAY SOME SHIT TO MY BEAUTIFUL FACE!"

You&I♥

Ecstasy.

This sculpture is called The Ecstasy of St Teresa. Check out the history of this sculpture, and you'll see why it's called as such. It's by Gian Lorenzo Bernini.

I ♥ it.

buttons.

Okay, i changed my header. It's a painting from the renaissance time.

The title is The Monk and The Nun by Cornelis Van Haarlem.

You see, the painters didn't get much release back then. So, don't be suprised.

Bollywood.

Shah Rukh Khan - Front View.

Shah Rukh Khan - Side View.
&20yearsyounger.

P/S: Thanks for the idea :D

One of my favourite Chris Crocker video - Bathroom Bullshit. Mostly what he said is true though.

My faith is shaking so fucking hard.

I hate Miley.

She's on my iTunes.

Keep on telling me to keep on pushing on.

Just like everybody else.

It gets kinda annoying.

When you don't believe in yourself, but other people do.

Why don't you try and be in my shoe for just one second?

No?

When can i touch the sky?

Miley Cyrus's The Climb used to be a good song. Now, not anymore. Seems like the words are not enough compare to what i feel about reaching my dreams. You have no fucking idea.

I mean she can sing all she wants. She got a gazillion bucks in her pocket. She can live without even having dreams.

I hate rich people

&&smart people.

HEAD.

Is my header too obscene?

Naaaahhh, i don't think so.

It'll be obscene if you yourself don't have an ass.

A good ass like that.

Instinct.

I Love Big Girls And I Cannot Lie.

I think, pshycologically, you will go against whatever people think of you. For example, when people say you're ugly, you think nooooooooooo!. But when people say you're pretty and all that, you'll think of your big pores and unkept hair. So, next time somebody say something about you, you just say,

Thank you :)

But first of all,
why would anyone judge anyway?

"It's Only Natural"

Lv,
Shuck.

MC.

No kidding. One the best albums around. So addicted to this album now. A year too late but wtv.

I L.O.V.E.E.E.E.E.E.E.E.E.E

LOVE STORY,
THANKS FOR NOTHING,
I STAY IN LOVE,
FOR THE RECORD,
&&TOUCH MY BODY.

Island.

So are you supposed to approve people who you THINK you know, but don't really sure if you do, on facebook?

Anyway, i love our friendship. Don't spoil it? Thanks :)

I wanna post some words from a song, but i've been posting a lot of that lately, so wtv.

Today is a good day. Especially the Sweedish Meatballs from Ikea. Damn. hahaha That's for lunch. And i had Ipoh Hor Fun at Oldtown in uptown for dinner. YUM! :D

And yay! My dad's gonna book our room in Redang tomorrow! I love you daddy <3

"You're not him, boy"

Lv,
Shuck.

Haters by Hilary Duff.

The words to this song makes me feel good. It's the innocent, young, less swearing version of what you should say to any psycho bitches.

Dont spit on me and shame yourself
Because you wish you were someone else
You look so clean but you spread your dirt
As if think that words dont hurt
You build up walls no one can climb
The things you do should be a crime
You're queen of superficiality
Keep your lies out of my reality
And when you're nice it's just a pose
You're one of those

Haters
Traitors to the human race
Haters
What a drag
What a waste
I'd like to see them disappear
They dont belong anywhere
Haters

Spinning a web thats hard to see
Of envy, greed and jealousy
Feeling angry but you don't know why
Why dont you look me in the eye?
You want my friends
You want my clothes
You're one of those

Different life form
Different species
Broken promises and treaties
Talkin' bout exterminating
Not the haters
Just the hating

You say your boyfriend's sweet and kind
But you've still got your eyes on mine
Your best friend's got her eyes on yours
It all goes on behind closed doors
And when you're nice it's just a pose
You're one of those

Haters
Later for the alibis
Haters
Any shape
Any size
I'd like to see them disappear
They dont belong anywhere
Haters

Hahaha bad ass skeleton. You rock Mr Skeleton. Yayyyyyah! :D

Psycho bitches.

Why do i always have a really bad relationship with other people's girlfriend? Seriously.

maths.

check out this site. www.morenewmath.com.

Mundane.

This morning i woke up from a nightmare, what it's about, better keep it to myself. But damn, it makes me go loco til i realised it's just a dream, or somebody needs a real slapping, and i dnt mean it on the ass. Texted Mr Homo. He texted back. Bla bla. Watched Baby Love video cos it makes me feel good watching it in the morning, on my bed.

Went downstairs cos Human Footprints is on Nat Geo (thanks Mr All-Bones), watched it while texting and thinking about how hungry i am, saw a gazillion muffins on the table, but it's not for me, so i decided to eat the oh-so-famous instant Maggi Mee. When i'm almost done, and the water's boiling like hell, i realised i've forgetten to put in the brown flavour thing. Thank god, if not i'll be eating tasteless springy noodles. But it turned out that the maggi is tasteless after all.

I never thought you could actually screw up with something so simple as maggi. I can't figure it out at first, why the maggi's so tasteless. Than i remembered, i put the water more than half of the boiling pan (is that what you call it? i don't know, it's round, and made of steel?). So yeah, that's my breakfast :D i'm proud. But that doesn't make me love cooking anymore than before.

You enjoy reading about tasteless maggi, don't you? :)

Hilda and the pham decided to come over today. She and Adib went out with my mum to buy some more muffin stuff. I went up and had a chat with Beal, at long last. We had a blast talking about stuff, bitching and getting pissed off at random people :D

When my mum came back at 4, i haven't took my shower. So i took my shower, went downstairs, told my mum that my dad wants to meet up at Gloria Jean's Midvalley. We did more muffins and sandwiches at record time.

At around 9, me, my mum, Hilda and Adib went to Gloria Jean's Coffees. Met up with Ronnie and Bang Roslan there. Got a BAD brain freeze from the mango smoothie i ordered, went online using my bro's laptop, chat some more with Mr Alex Gay.

He's been hanging out at gay bars a lot lately (i'm suprised it didnt happen any sooner), and yeah, we'll go one day aite? I like how he put it:

Me: gtg. i'm at gloria jean's now. gonna go back.
Alex: euw. you're a lesbo?
Me: wtf?
Alex: you're in Gloria's Jean. You do lesbo fuck?

You're gay enough without being bitchy Alex. He's been obsessing with beyonce cos he claims that's what gays do (Britney and Madonna too). Dude, i'm just happy you moved to a higher level of gayness :)

Came back home, and here i am :D

To Khairin, dude, really, i wonder how fucking big your brain is. With a gpa of 3.93, you could even futher you studies on outer space. Like, go with the martians and study their language or something. People like you lived to annoy people like me, so people like you shouldn't exist. Go shoot your balls and bleed to death.

I'm menstruating very soon. Zits are popping on my face like lavas on the surface of planet Mars and that thing down south doesn't feel so good either.

I realised i got 2 free things in one month, which is pretty cool cos i dnt get a lot of free goodies. A movie ticket and a Clinique skincare set. Well, alongside the free services YOU give me. You cheap whore. And now you're cheering about how the male population doesnt need to give birth. You people just fuck, and leave it to us to suffer.

I'm tired.

"You could become my king"

Lv,
Shuck.

If You Seek Amy.

Just got back from One Utama. Bought the belly stud. It has 3 playboy logos on it in multicolour, kinda. Got it for half of the normal price, so i got some money left from my paycheck. I hate it like that, cos i tend to spend everything if there's no budget plan. So i ended up using that money buying 2 earrings from this one kick ass new shop in one utama. It's Pink Evil something.

Watched He's Just Not That Into You for the one and a half time (the last time we watched it, we had to go out half way cos i gotta go work). One of the best movie ever, really. Like it really captures what's happening in the real world, kinda. But i think everybody can relate to at least one part of the movie.

Can't wait to try the new eyeliner.

Today was boring cos somebody played the zombie part, so to play along, you gotta be a zombie too, which is not so fun. But i guess that's how zombies have fun? :P

Tomorrow is muffin-making day.

And one quarter of chicken is actually enough to fill this growing tummy of mine :D

"Love me, Hate me, Say What You Want About Me"

Lv,
Shuck.

The post with the gazillion photos.

Thank god! the internet is back on! yippeeee! :)

yes, i'm blogging at 6.30 in the morning.

I've tried to upload a couple of videos i found. Videos of the last day of school. Physics class at the cafe with Kevin on guitar while everybody else eating, except for Khairin, he was doing some physics work. NERD. haha But Blogger really took their damn time to upload a 45 secs vid. So wtv.

Anyway, This is my supervisor while working at Gloria Jean's Coffees. LINK. I know this guy! hahaha He's the most awesome barista, cos he can do super kick ass latte art, no kidding.

I'm gonna find a belly stud for my piercing tomorrow. I lost it while working a couple of weeks ago.

So yeah, i'll just post up some random pictures.

FYI, these are alll ancients pictures that i found in this dusty laptop :)

"Down Memory Lane"

Lv,
Shuck.